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a depressing moment.

just came home from a killer exam- chemistry15 first lab departmental exam.
think i need to have a bloodtest. baka naubusan naqo ng dugo! jowk. xD

then, he came along. with that ‘unexplainable’ look on his face.
by unexplainable, i mean i was confused. ’twas like ‘naiinis (*na i was there*)-galit-wapakels-look’.
and it really made my whole *fragile* world crumble down. i was downcast!

so this is where another set of realizations start:

‘cuz, you know it’s really hard not to care or either to forget that person who is soo special to you.
even though you’re invisible to him.(*literally*)

wish he could say it straight to my face: ‘Just go away.’

para matauhan naman aqo. wish i could FINALLY give up.

p.s. to HIM: maawa ka naman. di mo ba alam merong nasasaktan? :’c

P.S. today’s wish:

i hope, [S.O.M.E.D.A.Y], you (*HIM*) will find all
my quotes, all my words && read them all. i wish you’ll know that they’re all about you && when you read them- i wish a single tear falls down your face.

*sigh* surely, it doesn’t mean that when you have gotten over something, there will be no days that it will come rushing back.

it’s one of those darn days:

*sheesh* my mom really knows a lot. (*xan pa ba aqo magmamana..haha.*)
the news was a real shock. ’twas like a slap to the face.
question#1: does love [still] exist?

*sheesh* to know that jerk, haha. at least i knew, i chose the right decision:

i’m happy for him though. somebody took the risk
of coping up with his IMMATURITY. best wishes for you guys.xD

july 14,2009 10:32 pm

gee.. i’m stayin’ up real late this sem. signs of ‘leveling up’. xD
i was browsing through my previous files and i realized i haven’t blogged
for a week! *gawd* (either i’m way too busy or just plain sleepy. teehee.)
so i’m pushing myself soo hard (at this very point in time), too blog.

i really have soo many things to do actually, but i have no energy to do it na.
maybe, tom na lang. hahaha.

i got a calculus exercise tomorrow and i haven’t reviewed yet. my project
for ansci isn’t finished also (well, isa nalang..) and i got a killer quiz and drill
for chem. *grr* hate chem. and to think, chem lab exam is only a few days away!
huhuhu.. iyak nalang aqo.

speaking of chem.. we studied IMFA kanina or intermolecular forces of attraction.
the very familiar rule: like poles repel, opposite poles attract. so goes my
*hidden* love story. when north pole meets another north pole=repel, therefore
there is no happy ending. happy ending doesn’t exist (limits ba ito?) haha.
well, i am hoping and wishing that i’ll just pop into your head and
you’ll say ‘crap, i made a huge mistake..’ bu i know it’s not gonna happen.
xbe nga ng mga uber supportive qong ate at kuia ‘ASA KA PAng pansinin ka’.
i realized (again, for the nth time..) i have to move on. *charr!* kalimutan ‘xa’.
ba’t qo pa ipipilit an sarili qo sa taong lumalayo sa’kin dbuh? it would be really pathetic.
if he’s dumb enough to walk away, i might as well.. let him..go.

nababadtrip lan aqo lagueh and nadedepress. lalo na pag nakikita qo xa.
God, why does he have to be so…. uhm, cute? haha..
saw him nung pauwi kame..

auqo na. dapat itgil qo na ang kahibangan na ito. nytz.
[kind sleep.free me briefly from myself]

july 1,2009 (8:15pm)

*gawd* time really flies uber fast. it’s already july! && i was still thinking my usual ‘hellweek’
started yesterday-tuesday and will be ending the day after tomorrow! gosh! there are lots of work to
be done. fufu x_x

this week is a sure hellweek-well, officially the start of our usual ‘haggardness TTh days’ because
our PE officially started yesterday! and then we’ll be playing ‘Agawan Buko’ tomorrow in PE uniform.
That would be shorts and shirt but then we’ll have to wear proper attire also in Chemistry lab class.
that would be changing clothes and freshening up in 30 minutes! *gawd*

need energy. need– inspiration? haha. well, found one for our uber boring chem lecture class.
i got a cutie classmate who resembles Kris Allen! soo cutie.. haha.

enweisz, gotta sleep. though it’s still early. i miss my tulog sessions. ciao.

july 3,2009 (3:00pm)

whee! thank God it’s friday!! i’m super free.. but, my whole body aches. the game
yesterday was really fun but, dang! too ‘brutal’ as well. haha.

i’ll be sorta busy next week. i got long chemistry quiz on tuesday and i have to meorize all those
elements and symbols, cations and anions.. blah blah blah.. chem sucks! totally.

i also have another set of accounting exercises comin’ up. i’m really going crazee over
the increase-decrease in assets and liabilities, debit-credit et cetera.

think i’m holding on to the last thread of my sanity. *ugh* gotta sleep before
changing to acad mode. teehee.