parole per te, verità per me

aug.22, 2009

::happee happee burtdei to batchmate sandy!::

currently listening to Silent Sanctuary’s Mistaken for Granted

on the playlist:
‘papatunayan ko, na aqo lang sa’yo..
mamahalin kita sa puso qo’y nanjan ka,,
maiintindihan mo rin aqo..’

echoing through my head. such sweet lullabye. parang ‘xa’
qong magsalita. *sigh*

xa. xa. puro nalang xa. tsktsk.
gotta stop.

soo many things to do. soo little time.
i’m drained out.

aug.23,2009 9:09

currently listening to Silent Sanc’s ‘Sa Buhay Na To’

‘isang beses ka lang makakaraan sa buhay na’to’

still, nine thenths of yesterday.. he was on my mind.
i was thinking, there were so many chances and opportunities missed.
chances and opportunitites that would be so ‘lovely’.

couldn’t find a perfect adjective for any moment spent with him.
geez. iunno.

i’m also scared.

pnu kung hinayaan ko ang sarili ko na itake ung mga
chances na ‘yun? i know it would be very nice but then
i know na people would make ‘halata’.

geez. auqo din magfall :c

sometimes, you’d really think life is unfair.

*sigh*

reflections
aug.20,2009 11:00 pm

currently watching: Silent Sanctuary-Hiling Official Music Video

parang nahawa aqo ke friend. getting malungkot for no apparent reason. (*un ang xabe nya*)
think i got a depression syndrome. or maybe my bipolar disorder got worse.
i feel like crying. T.T

inference#1: nppressure aqo sa acads! (*akalain mo un*)
nffeel qo nah, na isa aqong UP student.
inference#2: kwindang na mga exams na yan..
inference#3: papa’s sick again. i wanna go home.. T.T

iunno.

stared at the mirror for some time kanina.
i didn’t recognize/know the girl staring back at me.

felt soo low.
xguro epekto to ng kape:

‘ love, your latte day saint’-t.b.d”

nescafe latté mode.

anti sleeping policy for ms abi.

hagardness lan xguro ang sem na’to.
geez. gotta sleep. it’s gonna be another long week.

aug 16, 2009 9:28 pm

‘you should’ve said: nice to meet you,i’m your other half’
- relient k (best thing)

my other half. where could he be??  i’m waiting, i’m waiting.. *impatient.impatient*
ndi qo xa mhanap. ‘blinded aqo’. gawa ng mga panggulo sa buhay qo. *tsk.tsk.*

sna, isang araw bigla na lang siyang sumulpot sa harapan qo. mgpapakilala,
‘hi, aqo nga pala ang ginawa ni God para sa’yo. andito aqo
upang mahalin ka, pasayahin ka at samahan ka habang buhay.’

windang! haha. katakot xguro un. xD

basis for drying off milking cow

este..

basis for choosing ‘other half’:

-nghanap.at nkahanap skin. i want SOMEONE who will find me. ung tipong, in a sea of faces
aqo ung nagsa-standout para sa kanya.

-dhil dun, ibig sabihin: special aqo sa kanya. someone who will love me for being me despite
na alam nyang marami jang iba.

-someone who will love me khit malaman nya ang mga flaws qo, weaknesses qo at iba pang mga nakakahiyang
bagay tungkol sa akin.

-gentleman. bihira na lang ‘to ngaun. guxto qo ung ma-effort. ung ipapakita talaga xau
gano ka kaspecial at kaimportante sa kanya.

-sweet at malambing. di qo na ata kelangan i-explain un. *teeheee*

-ung masarap kauxap! dhil madaldal aqo.. haha..

-pareho ng paniniwala qo: Christian. and everything else will follow. :]]

narealize q lang, gawa nung isang kuia

kuia: as much as possible, dapat LA din..
ayan, c ging-ging, walang takas yan..

katakot fact#1: yeah.soo true.wala aqong takas.
katakot fact#2: baka nga andito lan XA sa tabi-tabi..
that’s why God brought me here..
katakot fact#3: oh no! cno kaya??

geez. ung ‘prospect’ (*galing ke batch ‘to. haha.xD*) qo naman
alam qo me ‘lubb’ ng iba. khit dine-deny nya. tsktsk.

well, at least we’re friends. :]] haha.

weehee..

“i’ll go back to before we met,,try and erase the past
try harder to forget cause nothing will ever be
as good as here and now”

aug 10, 2009 9:26pm
song(S) for the day:
1. Justin Bieber- One Time
2. Relient K- Best Thing

*ugh* the boredom consumes me. i was tryin’ soo hard these past days
to create a post-even a single one. nothing came up. my neurons are diminishing.
oh,horrible days!

my acads are slowly eating up my neurons (*brain cells*) and my ’sipag’ cells
and sends me to a trance- drifting me slowly to the ultimate escape: sleep.

i was going through the pages of memory for the significant happenings last week:

1. no class last Wednesday- special holiday for the burial of the late president Corazon Aquino.
2. Batch ‘08 Get Together @ Sizzlers *applause*- made new friends! *happiness*
3. pe class cancelled- no need for swimsuit!
4. overcome painful sore throat by being maingay to the highest level.
5. David Incident
5. crushie moment. (*wait, dme nun ah?*)

so, here goes another week that calls for survival.
a week that started pretty much amazing. :]]

PS: ____, i had a real amazing time. sana masundan pa.

aug.4,2009 10:40
currently listening to: Mariah Carey: I Wish You Knew
‘..&& how i wish you only knew what i feel inside for you
you probably haven’t got a clue..’

-juz got home after a sundae session with mommii hahr at mga kapatid qo: c blossom at c bubbles. haha.xD and i CAN and i WILL stay up latie. no classes tom! wheeeeee! =^.^= (*xama eeh.condolences*)

-kei, seryoso na’to. *ehemm*

nothing really significant for this day. my pe prof didn’t let me and my  blockmate grace play today’s game. wala daw kmeng kwents. di daw kxe kame takot. game na game. haha. and also, people have the holiday high fever. lahat masaya dhil walang paxok tom.  at dahil jan, tuloy na tuloy na ang Batch ‘08 get-together. (*applause*)

-gurl, ’snobby’ update:
natauhan naqo. actually, i came to my senses just last night. *ugh* after sufferingfor almost a year. kamuxta naman? something came up and knocked me down. buti nalang. think i can finally give up and move on. haha. xbe nga ng ate qo, the bottom line pa rin is, ndi pa rin aqo pinapancin. (*well, aus lang naman sakin na.*) kea dun nalang daw aqo sa pumapancin sakin.issue.haha. tama naman db? xempre pipiliin qo ung ma2halin aqo ng bonggang-bongga db? wag naman na un c ‘mon****’.bka matuloi pa ung pang film fest natin na ‘DOTA vs. YOU (the giving up). haha. xD
found this quotie:
‘I think that everyone can change if the right person comes along.
And I think that every girl wants to be the right person, every girl
wants to be the one girl that can change that guy.’
- Lauren Conrad
cutie. :]]

-’mas pipiliin qo ung mahal aqo..’
every girl needs that guy who she can wrap her arm around.
the one who’ll write a song or poem for her.
the one who’ll score a goal or hit a homerun for her.
the one who’ll listen to her and understands her.
the one who will kiss her on the forehead when she’s sleeping.
the one to wipe away her tears and tell her she’s beautiful.
the one who’ll make her smile and laugh.
the one who’ll call at the middle of the night just to say ‘i love you.
the one who just doesn’t compare to anyone else.

sweet.:]]

-inspired pa rin. haha. mas aus na ung gan’to. aqo lang nkakaalam. wheeeee! (*garaa jud oist*) naalala qo tuloi ung banat sa text: ‘ngumiti  ka lang, ok na.’ pamatai na smile ih! muntik aqo matunaw ‘nun. ampf.. haha. ciao.

PS: ___ ingat ka lage. :]] Gbu.

pahabol pa: xoxoxoxo, abiitots

date today: extraordinary. (08/03/09)

currently listening to: Mariah Carey-Emancipation of Mimi

‘..our love goes round and round on a joy ride’

*thank you sa nag-download nito: c FRIEND. haha. alam qong
mababasa nya to. mamats. :]]

(Friend oh, spexal mention ka.hahaxD)

“Today the stars fell down from the sky and burned the city while the people cried. The shining sun faded to a dusty gray and all the lovers passion went away.  The mighty ocean was tamed by a cup and
the girl who loved you endlessly finally gave up.”

axteeg ba ang intro? haha. nbasa qo lang. d aqo mag-eemo ngaun. masaya aqo weh.
haha. xD

(*msaya ka ba talaga?*)

oo. wag kna kumontra.

(*oo na, nginitian ka lang eh:]]*)

i’m melting, i’m melting.. i’m evaporating.. haha.xD

(*nuod tau ng elbi pie ha?*)

oo ba.

[inside story:

(start)

jugtoi-jugtoi aiep. garaa jjud naqo oist. bidaaah! haha. xD
gee. hajja man qo gamuhad nga ing-ato mahitabo.
hajja qo gamuhad 'dho na makauban ka.

lip** xad qo dah. haha. (*muh lang* uiee..)
wa qo kaxabot actually nganu ing-ani qo run..
ganahan lang jjud tali qo nimo (?) papart-papart lan.. anha ra kutob.

hajja man gud q nasaup sa aqoa pagtan-aw nimo. mao guro
dili ka mabiya-biyaan sa ga-tag-iya nimu sa una. woot.

(end)]

-aa naman. tinatamad talaga aqong gumawa ng anything na acad related.
walang ibang laman utak qo kundi..xa. haha. korniieeh!
‘hinding-hindi mo malalaman ever. haha. xD
kxe naman, magaling din ata aqo. pnu naman kxe..
panggulo lang aqo.. haha.xD tska natatakot dn aqo..’

-worried: nu kea nangyayare dun? bka kako napagalitan. aww T.T

august 1,2009 4:32pm

one week had passed, not even a single blog post.

la naman maxadong nangyare sken na ’significant’ pwera nalang ‘unforgettable’.
haha. lakas talaga ng trip ng PE prof qo.

mechanics of the game:

1. manghuhuli ng palaka sa center spot

2. ipapasok sa tshirt mo na me plastic sa loob. pagdasal mo nalang na                    mai-shoot mo s plastic.. qndi..
3. tatakbo ka papuntang base ng group nio.
4. padamihan ng mahuling froggies..

relay baga. ampf. kung anu-anong kalokohan at weird stuffs ang nagagawa qo dhil sa mga subjects qo.
sa tuesday naman, kailangan namen magdala ng madameng earthworms.. ampf! Fear Factor? di namen alam nu
dadalhin ng ibang group, zmen lan ung earthworms.

this week, wala na ding ka-emohan na nangyare. i’m trying na kalimutan na nga ung taong pinoproblema qo.
mejo effective naman xa sa ngaun. hehe. sa ngaun.

effective din ung happee pill na nadiscover qo: Kiko Machine! asteeg talaga.
mamats kay rein :)) rak en roll \m/

july 24, 2009 9:19pm

currently listening to letoya lucket-Not Anymore:
‘..cause i’ve dried my eyes and i realized,,i deserved somebody that’ll treat me right somebody say, i don’t want it anymore, because i know my worth so you can keep that drama, i dont want it anymore..’

well, i really need to get away.
#1. get away from him.
‘&& he doesn’t even realize the little
things he does that break my heart..’
#2. get away from all the drama.

after a night of revelation (*which was last night*), i don’t know how i SHOULD feel. emphasis on should. gawd. things are getting waay too complicated. i think things being complicated are a sort of ‘trademark’ in my life.

saw this cute lil quotie on the net:
‘i think the hardest part about this
situation is neither of us know what’s
going on. neither of us knows what
the other is thinking & we’re both
trying to make decisions based
on the information we don’t know.’

but the only difference with ‘us’, is that i THINK now, we BOTH know.
and that’s bothering me (*to the highest level*). and in addition to that..
another ‘party’ came up-making it really worse.

gee. iunno wut to do. don’t wanna bring on the hurt.

july25,2009 7:12pm

currently listening to Super Junior-Gee
♥i xoo lubb lee donghae!! ♥

still bothered. hmmmm.. it’s been a week na,and i’m still soo not over the hurtful
things that had happened. why does he have an effect like this on me?? i really don’t want the drama anymore.
qng pede qo lang ipamigay noh?

have you ever had that one point in your life, where you were just sitting there minding your
own business and then suddenly a song came up on the radio? and you feel so sad you wanted to cry out?
because at that very moment all you wanted to do is tell HIM how you feel and hope he understands.

that’s how i feel. i sink in deeper to the lyrics of the songs with a sigh.
it’s like the song is spilling out my secrets. tipong sapul na sapul.

my anxious thoughts. they’re making me crazier each day.

july 26,2009 8:43 pm

currently listening to-Hey Monday: 6 Months
‘ so please.. give me a hint, give me a lesson on
how to steal a heart, as fast as you stole mine..’

sheesh. what’s happening to me?! feels like i don’t even know myself.
think i’d fail on the quiz ‘How Well do you know yourself?’

i’m on a war of heart vs. heart vs. head. sheesh. soo torn.
torn between *ugh*. can’t admit.